Sometimes it is rather contradicting when it comes to relationships or when two good friends of opposite sex start to feel something for each other . You know why? Thats where problems start to arise. Cause humans tend to seek for trouble when trouble doesn't come. Does it sound like a chinese idiom? Yea.. but I would not type it out la.. And so, emotions start to invade in us. At some extreme, people would even do things that would harm themselves for just a simple and innocent word "LOVE".
I have a very good example. (Don't care who is the male and female lead) Yep.. And so the story starts.. There was once this girl who loves this guy but however, due to certain commitment problems, the guy would not want to have commitment. Cause he felt that this would restrict his freedom. ( This is ridiculous!) Okie.. At the same time, this girl had another guy who loves her a lot and especially dote on her. However, the only thing that was lacking between them was the ability to communicate efficiently and the feelings. Somehow the girl felt that feelings was equally important to her. However, the girl makes a tough decision to decide on the doting guy. But but.. the story does not end as the girl just always feel that something is lacking between her and the doting guy. Till now, she can confidently say that her feelings for the first guy is there or rather always been there. She thought about it. Thought it through.. she couldn't make a decision. Another wierd situation.. or rather contradicting.. It goes like this .. Previously the first guy doesn't want commitments and he stopped for a period of time and not to see her or message her. Whereas, the doting guy kept or message the girl and trying to make her as happy as she is. When the girl decides on the doting guy, the situation is the reverse. The doting guy messages and calls her less and even their outings have been cut down whereas the first guy messages her everyday without fail and even go out with her more often ( Date her out) . Don't you readers find that these kind of things do actually happen? Hai..
In short, " Love does not necessary constitute happiness ; Happiness does not necessary constitute love"
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9/21/2006
~ 9:59 AM ~
Hey hey,
Oh gosh, today is already Thursday but but but.. i have not finished my accounts homework.. just wondering why do i have so much work.. argh.. got maths assignment and tutorials, got banking and finance hw and now acounts homework which is like a lot?? cos i dunno how to do so always try to skip skip skip and in the end till now i haven finish.. ZzZz... haix.. nothing much happened recently just that i felt sinful last weekend.. cos i have been going out on both saturday and sunday which i am supposed to use those days for revision.. awww.. so this weekend shall be a make up and i will be mugging hard.. cos i will never forget the regret that i made in A levels --- that is to lose focus and never work hard.. that was one of my greatest regrets as seeing all my classmates going to local unis and seeing my own dreams of getting into NTU Accountancy shatter reali break my heart.. therefore mug mug mug.. i shall not say so much but use results to prove it.. haha.. and of cos with ya support.. "someone who always says i am smart" .. but to add on, if i am smart i wont end up in *** .. so ya loh..
Have been trying hard to stay focus.. and i definitely will.. but as you all know, studying and working definitely drains mi out and plus i reali wonder why my schedules for different weeks are always packed.. sian!!! ... duno why leh.. trying to make time for everything i do.. and i am still finding the best way to manage my time.. lets hope i am able to manage.. or else one day i may just collapse in front of you.. or rather headlines stating "GIRL COLLAPSED DUE TO LACK OF TIME MANAGEMENT" .. ahha.. meeting with my younger cousin later as i promised to help her find a job and have dinner with her.. so ya loh.. den must rush home after that le.. cos cos cos.. my accounts hw.. argh..
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9/19/2006
~ 11:36 AM ~
Hey Hey,
GUess wad am doing here at this time of the day when i am suppose to be busy with my work.. ahha.. slacking time of course.. my boss never come again.. it always happens when she decided to MIA that i have to rot like a fish.. nvm.. at least i can do some posting.. ytd didnt blog much but just a brief extra things.. ahha.. i was busy trying to finish my maths and banking and finance hw.. hmmm.. i still have accounts homework and of cos revision work to be done.. stress stress!!..
Ytd had econs and banking and finance lesson.. like my friend say " Ytd shouldn't have gone for the banking lesson.. very waste time cos he oni go through again wad the relief teacher had taught.." .. haha .. but i love monday lessons.. cos i can crap and learn from my group members which comprises mostly of guys.. they are very helpful and smart.. when u dun understand, they will explain till u understand.. arn't they good?? although they are a bit hyper at times.. econs is getting tougher as each lesson progresses.. haha.. i am trying to cope la.. but still can manage i suppose.. rather boring except for Mr Ting's last 5 mins joke.. damn funny.. i was luffing off my heads la.. he kinda cute la.. *Still wondering he married already a not* .. dun be mistaken.. i am nt intersted in him.. just that qi say he nt married.. but i still believe that he is already married.. we shall see .. ahha..
Oh ya.. someone's bdae is approaching soon.. guess hu?? nt mi definitely.. haha.. for all those who interested to know.. just go guess it or find out yaself.. dun be lazy!!...
He gonna be back home todae nite.. haha.. nights out.. sian la.. but he have to go home makan.. cos he is a fillial son i suppose.. he miss his mummy i tink.. and of cos he miss mi.. oh ya a sweet tot from him " do u miss mi?? miss a bit cos now oni half a dae past since i saw u . what about a week later?? miss a bit times 7.. -_-" " .. he is forever so lame.. haha.. like his craps and cold jokes.. was still tinking of getting wad gift for him.. cos i am an ultimate "no idea" girl.. still pondering la.. but some how i got a rough idea.. heh heh.. anyway... my lunch time is up.. out for lunch.. blog tml
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~ 12:14 AM ~
Hey!
Feeling a lil blissful now.. With you by my side.. Doting on mi.. Caring for mi.. Accompanying mi.. Walking down this tough tough study and working life..
Feeling so blissful now.. Every words you said.. Touched the inner hearts of mi.. Giving in to mi as much as possible.. Though i am wildful.. Thanks!!
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9/14/2006
~ 4:43 PM ~
Hey!
Life as usual.. Looking forward to u coming back from outfield.. Looking forward to the Trombone Choir Performance.. Looking forward to .. Nahz.. I am crapping le.. So Sian.. Why is my life so monotonous?? I love my job now.. I trying to love my studies now.. But still.. I feel empty.. Am i asking for too much in my life?? Is a happening life more suitable for me? Hahahahahaha.. Contradicting!! I go mug mug mug le.. Gambateh and stop asking why le Miss Serene..
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9/12/2006
~ 10:50 AM ~
Hey!
It has been the end of Sep Hols. I just realised time passes so fast. It seems like i have just started school not long. However, i have to accept the fact that it has already more than one month since school started. School work have been piling up. Having done some revision, i realised that the time spend on each chapter is increasing. It makes me ponder whether i have efficiently managed my time well enough. Just based on last Sunday, I spent nearly 5 hours on one pathetic chapter in Banking and Finance on Comparative Financial Systems. It is a rather narrative chapter but some how or rather, the facts just dun seem to be installed intomy brain. Nevertheless, I managed to understand the chapter fully.
Back to my Sep hols, Monday to Wednesday were my working days and my boss is kind enough for me to change the Thursday work day to Monday as i wanted to rest consecutively throughout the week.
On Thursday, it was my one and only rest day. I woke up quite late, nearly 10 am and brought my sister to school before i stayed home to mug. However, I just dunno why i can't really focus and thus my studying plan was some how disrupted. At around 6pm, i received a call. Guess who. He called me to go dinner near my house. Nice of him to ask me out for a dinner so bought dinner for my family before i got out as my mum leg was as swollen as hmm a pig trotter leg?? ahha.. just meant for a joke.. after dinner at pizza hut..(oh god really got fatter) .. went to cold storage and he bought mi chocs.. he say "eating chocs can make a person happy.. so whenever u sad or angry, must remember to eat the chocs".. how sweet of him rite.. hmm till now i still ate one packet everydae.. ahha.. den he accompany me home before he took a cab back camp.. oh ya.. he is so poor thing.. half of his face was burnt.. because of the scorching sun.. he say "u help mi destroy the sun bah".. i say "but i hate to suffer in cold and darkness all the time" .. -_-" ..
On Friday, guess what.. no rest day and had to meet my group mates to finish up our project.. which is to do up a presentation and research on the tutorial quetions.. yup.. met at PS Mac and in the end drizzling and wasn't a good place to discuss as it was a weekend with many shoppers and food temptations too.. so one of my group mates with a car drove us to orchard library, thinking that we can do some research there and at the same time continue with our discussion.. however we are still stuck with the crowd.. so so we ended up at Taka Mac again.. however this time we made efficient discussions.. something i just realised.. haha.. that is my group guys are intelligent and really smart.. hmm not that i wana praise them but some how i was rather impressed by the number of points they could come up with for the questions and as for me, i did up the slides for them and yesterdae was supposed to present.. but.. Mr Peh never come .. -_-" .. lame him loh.. never mind .. yesterdae first time ate lunch with my group members.. we have became close after the group discussion.. reali very happy.. the guys are very gentleman too.. hope to get better view of them in time to come..
On Sat, ahha.. suppose to go skating but never.. everyone backed out.. so erm just slept throughout till noon.. then wake up to go out with him.. went to buy my sister bdae present at Bugis.. ahha he gave me lots of comments but i sort of scolded him.. sorry ah!!.. then we went to watch movie.. ahha "Sirens" not very scary though but we two sort of quite tired that he always fall asleep .. had a hard time waking him up.. then before movie went to crystal jade to eat dim sum.. wah.. nice and we ordered a chilli oil noodle .. so HOT!! then he helped me eat but keep drinking water cause he dun take spicy food.. poor thing.. on our way home after movie.. got a small quarrel.. i want to walk to dohby ghaut den he dun wan.. den keep dragging mi down to the mrt.. so nv talk to him throughout the whole train journey.. went home and realise mi fault so i apologise and we two have peaced out!! Went home and rushed out my project as they want it by Sun morning to prepare .. *yawn*
On Sun, nth nth nth.. i just mug for five hours on that chapter and stayed at home for dinner.. yum yum .. daddy cooked dinner this time..
*James bought a bond called James Bond* -_-"
9/06/2006
~ 2:58 PM ~
Aloha! Todae is the start of a new blog.. no choice.. cos i reali cant stand templates.. simply irritating..so i dun care about the background any more.. just wish for a normal blog for mi to rattle all my problems.
School has started for about a month plus le.. school work has been piling up whereas office work is still manageable and that explains why i am still able to blog in the middle of office hours.. ahha.. though tired.. but seriously i feel that i am leading a very fulfilling life with bothwork and studies.. u know why. it makes mi understand that it is not reali easy going through the journey of life and everything i am doing is for my own future.. this kept mi going till now.. i used to tink that life is ever so smooth sailing..neevrtheless i have tried out its bitterness though. I made mi learn lots of things though and it kept mi real busy throughout this whole month. I hardly get rest with many commitments i guess. So still trying hard to cut down on commitments.. if nt my eye bags would have been able to hold the weight of a toothpick i guess..
My love life have been rather weighty (did i use a correct word?) .. Too much for mi i guess.. but sometimes it is rather contradicting as u will find that it is rather essential at this age of yours cos u will yearn for it.. i do admit that i yearn for it as i have tasted the sweetness of a relationship before.. it does reali taste sweet enough to balance off the bitternessof your work and life though.. but the sour part seems to make the thing becomes totally bland too.. let nature takes its course i guess...
That's all.. or should i say i am lazy to blog some more?? guess so.. too tired... Tata!! =)
about me
* Serene Low
* Full time student
* Aquarius
* 11th Feb 1987
* Always cheerful
* Stay positive
* Stay strong
* Independent
