show me the way ;

10/27/2006

~ 10:55 PM ~

Hey

I am back to blog.. have been goonging all day and night that i
change a bit of my normal lifestyle recently.. and now i am back,
afresh, but still fascinated over Goong.. cos i simply love the story..
hai.. i just found out that my loves now is not about guys and not
about relationships.. i simply love going to school and going to
work.. haha.. u know why.. whenever i am in school, i feel like i am
being myself, free of things and with a lot of friends' companion.. i
have certainly made a substantial number of gd friends.. i dun deny
that they are mostly guys.. but they are truly gd friends to moi
though.. i also enjoy the times lunching with them in school or at ngee
ann poly and also in lectures where we joke around and most importantly
learn from each other things that we are not sure and clarify with each
other.. these are the happy moments i enjoy and they certainly make my
day with smiles.. haha.. in the office although it is sometimes kinda
tedious due to heavy workload and blunders i made.. but rite everytime
i hear this sentence from my boss " u have done a gd job..." i simple can just
jump for joy and all my hardwork certainly had paid off.. just the sad part
is that my relationships are always full of ups and downs and how i wish it
will ever be as gd and bring mi smiles.. i am so tired.. very tired of the
relationships that i cant help but tear quietly.. it is not because i felt helpless..
it is because i find that i am a total failure in that.. wad a failure.. there fore
i would just take a steo further, trying to walk away from that shadow and
come out of it.. into the new world full of friends and full of smiles.. back to
my studies le..

=()

"A new lease of life for mi"

10/15/2006

~ 6:28 PM ~

Hey..

Spent the whole day at home today.. it wasn't boring.. it was the
kind of peaceful life i want.. i was scanning through all the nicks
in msn and i chanced upon one which left a deep impression and it
happen to be my cousin's nick .. i shall translate it back to english
" i am beginning to realise that i do not know what i am thinking in
my heart" ... it made me think a lot.. becos i am currently facing
such a problem.. haix.. why why why? .. actuali i haven really thought
through about the two guys.. sometimes i feel a regret for my choice..
i am not suppose to say that as i know Miss Gao is going to strangle me..
but rite .. i do feel it .. it is hard for two people to get together, happily and
accomodating each other.. it is kinda hard.. my heart afterall is still not
fixed.. i knew it.. just that i have been deceiving myself.. the fact that i
have not reali decided.. maybe i will never decide on one till the day one
of them come to ask mi.. haix.. sorry to people around mi, who care for mi
and yet i always disappoint them with my problems and guys.. sigh sigh ..

ytd, went to eat prata with Mr Tian at jalan kayu.. i was quite surprised that
he did agree to go for supper near my house despite his laziness.. haha.. he
was complaining la.. saying thee cheese prata not as nice etc.. but to mi rite..
it is the companion that matters not the food.. after all i had a gd chat with
him and blar blar and took a cab home due to no more transport available.. he
asked mi something but i am still considering.. hmm..

"It is your company that matters and not the surrounding things that should matter"

=)

10/12/2006

~ 9:20 AM ~

Hey..

Back to blog le.. It has been quite some time since i last blogged.
One of the reason is because i seriously don't have enough time,
or rather i have very poor time management. That's sad to a certain
extent.

Moving on?? Seriously, I felt that a lot of my friends have moved on
except for a few special cases . Looking at them moving on and
maturing makes me love the process of growing up together with them.
I used to hate growing up. It depicts me having to act mature, be mature
and think mature. What's there to be, act and think mature? I still
prefer the childhood times of cos where I can be free from troubles
( maybe kids now have troubles.. not so sure .. just a general statement)
and just lie on daddy and mummy's hug where you would be showered
with love. Have i moved on happily and cheerfully with my own life?
That's a good question to myself. Or rather i have still in the process of
moving on? I suppose so.

Friends.. Please move on if you have not done so.. Cause i am also moving on ..
The first step to moving on is quite hard.. but with my determination, i
am sure moving on may be a blessing from troubles. Gambateh!

"Life is full of ups and downs"

=)

10/05/2006

~ 1:03 PM ~

Hey,

Felt whiny today. dunno why.. Status today is low.. feeling so
down.. i tink i am suffering from PMS.. oh god oh god.. just wished
an angel would say "let mi be the one who will accompany u when
u are down" .. ahha.. will there ever be?? .. my good friends are
always busy with things .. dunno leh.. just feel everyone is busy..
i feel so isolated.. haha.. even darling too.. feel so alone.. ahh ahh..
die le la.. something is wrong with mi .. everyone thought that i am
very xing fu.. am i?? ... haha.. dun tink so.. i may seem like.. but
deep down i just feel lonely .. lonely is the word now.. aHHHHH..

Tomorrow is Lantern Festival.. i suppose the moon is gonna be
round.. very round and bright.. every year's lantern festival the
moon will be full .. i like this day.. it makes mi feel even more bonded
with my family and i enjoy festive seasons and atmosphere..
lalalalalala.. whatever ~

"Lonely in my heart"

=(

10/04/2006

~ 4:31 PM ~

Hey ,

Back to my postings le.. I am so tired.. Forever so tired..
Don't understand why sometimes .. haix.. mi and darling
have been busy for quite sometime (what i actually meant
was for the past one week plus).. but we do keep in
contact via phone calls and smses .. haix.. i miss him...
that was what i have been telling my beloved Val and Qi for
the past one week... haha.. Maybe this weekend we will
be meeting to watch Rob - B - Hood .. it is just a maybe
bah.. duno he really free a nt..

Was tinking of going to the zoo de but qi not free and there
goes the trip i suppose.. haha.. nevermind la then i can
study too .. i must love studying.. i was reading the
announcement column where by they announced this
year's first class honours.. ahha.. so cool la.. i wanna be
one of them even though it is of minority.. haha.. i must be
dreaming too hard.. cos rite.. i have not been studying hard
enough.. maybe not as hard as Qi bah.. cos i everyday heard
she mugging.. i feel so stressful siak.. and when i reali feel
stressful, i would tink of sleeping.. wierd rite? .. haix..
tonite i better buck up le la.. have been sleeping like a pig..

"you will never know the truth in love"

=)