Like my title says.. this week is dull.. maybe because of his absence. There is this saying "Absence makes the heart grow fonder". Don't ever underestimate this statement. It is real true. Everyday after work / school, he will always be on my mind, thinking about how he is doing, kena burnt, become a red lobster, fall sick and whatever bad things that can happen to him. Haha.. I am going on the extreme side of "hua-chiing" already. That's bad. *Kok Kok Serene's head* And right, he is getting sweeter.. really sweet.. sometimes i don't even know that's for real or just a humour. All I know is that i am comfortable whenever i am out with him. You know.. it is not the physical moments that i am with him but just the little care and concern from him and the smiles and the feel that is important. He makes me feel loved and he makes me feel like Serene. I must stressed.. He really makes me feel like Serene.. Tolerating all my nonsense.. all my childish acts.. all my whining.. all my bubbly acts.. all my hyper acts..all of me.. and of course all of Serene.. be it she is fat, thin, pretty, ugly, long hair, short hair, glam, unglam and ALL.. haha.. that's what that makes him attractive afterall.. i used to change for a person.. somehow he has the power to make me change for him.. i thought i would be happy, seeing him happy for the changes i have ade for him.. but i am wrong i guess. i was never this happy.. always thinking of how much more i should improve on myself to become more attractive.. that period was quite sad.. i tried to exercise everyday, took up aerobics, learn dancing, control my diet and tried all ways... for a start, i was rather determined but as time goes by, i felt that it ain't Serene anymore.. the cheerful and bubbly girl has turned into a sulky girl.. because i am always wondering why the guy i used to like always wants a better change in me.. i just don't seem to understand what's the point of being perfect .. i am always discouraged by the many flaws pointed out by him that i lost all my confidence in myself.. Qi told me " Serene.. finally u understand the meaning of not regretting to love someone who may not be with you forever".. and yesh.. i have understood.. the real meaning of being once cherished and loved and not thinking of a forever love.. Haha.. enough said.. I miss him so much and he is still in fieldcamp.. Gosh.. haha.. tata!
"Our love grows stronger"
=)
about me
* Serene Low
* Full time student
* Aquarius
* 11th Feb 1987
* Always cheerful
* Stay positive
* Stay strong
* Independent
