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3/30/2007

~ 10:34 AM ~

HmMM:

oh wells, here i am in the office blogging due to my laziness to indulge in my work.. haha! .. and oh wells.. i am having cramps and real pain cramps and i guess its time that my relatives are visiting me soon.. real soon.. boo!! life has been pretty much the same.. leading a routine life which is rather blissful..

Is jealousy a bad policy or a good policy? Oh well.. that phrase did rthym (i had some problem trying to spell this out) .. Don't girls have the privilege to feel jealous at times? .. Random thoughts.. I just knew that he is one of blogger's viewers.. haha.. i felt so guilty when i accused him of not viewing my blog.. Oh wells.. Nvm..

Guess today is a oh wells days.. Pics..

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3/14/2007

~ 12:47 AM ~

hmm..

My dearest mummy just had her operation yesterday and judging by her looks, she seems pale and in pain.. Was waiting patiently outside the operating theatre while she has been in there for hours.. Time passes very slowly as the doors of the operating theatre keep opening and closing.. as the doors keeping opening and closing, i could feel the fear within it.. i knew that mummy's gonna be alright as it was said to be not a major operation but somehow i felt uneasy upon standing outside the theatre.. i heaved a sigh of relief upon mummy being wheeled out of the operating theatre.. i could see drops of tears flowing out of her eyes.. she was half unconscious and i could felt her pain in her leg.. i didn't show out.. but it pains mi.. as her daughter where i can't help her to alleviate her pain.. i felt helpless too.. the only thing i could do was to talk to her.. looking at her pale aged face reminds mi that she has aged a lot.. since the time i was ten (that was like duh!) but somehow i felt sad and trying to control my tears.. at that point of time.. i could also feel daddy's worries for mummy as he didnt left the operating theatre even after mummy's been wheeled in.. he waited outside patiently despite his arm being painful and i could felt a deep love that has been embedded in both of their hearts.. pinning for each other.. told dear just now "how i wish i would find someone just like my daddy.. someone who is honest and faithful.. someone who although doesn't show out the love and concern but show it at appropriate moments"..it makes my thoughts wonder a lot.. told him these not that i have no confidence in him.. but just a thought that comes to my mind.. daddy's "wu wei bu zhi de" care and concern simply touched me.. i felt lucky to be in this happy family although we are just a middle income family who may sometimes be struggling due to shortage of money.. this is because i felt happy and i can feel care and concern within me..

Love you dear too.. thanks for standing by me whenever i feel down and of cos kena my scoldings when i am PMS-ing.. everything's appreciated..

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3/09/2007

~ 9:40 PM ~

hey hey..

Finally i am done with exams le.. it was like a tough two weeks, having me to struggle for exams because basically i was too engrossed with the chinese new year festive mood. There have been many things going on during these two weeks although it was supposed to be a monotone two weeks for me but somehow, i strayed....

One big major thing was on 5/3/07, i quarrelled with dear.. or rather it was not a quarrel .. it was a self reflection.. he msged me telling me that he is tired of mi talking about the three guys .. haix.. i was so sad that i cried the whole night literally.. till my eyes became puffy the next day.. cos i felt guilty.. i didnt know that telling him things about them would upset him so much.. and that night reali made me felt that he is so damn important to me.. gosh!! ... i felt so helpless that night as it felt as though the end of the world for mi.. but throughout the whole conversation, he did not mention a word "break up". That brought a great relief as i do treasure him a lot... he asked me whether i still like the other two a not but i can confidently say "NO!" as they have already become part of my memories.. be it good or bad.. but any way we have peaced out and everything remains good.. and i promise i will be sweeter to him of cos!!.. =)

other than that, my two weeks are indeed monotone, with him frequenting my house to go for a dinner with me or just give mi a "JIAYOU".. mi and dear two months and 12 days le.. boo hoo!!.. it may be short to people but i just felt as though we are already "Lao fu Lao qi" le.. haha.. yup yup yup.. whole week of activities lining up for me to liberate..

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